Thursday, September 6, 2012

Caspian's First Day of School

5:00  AM  I wake before Kevin's alarm sounds, anxious and nervous. Caspian's in bed with us, he snuck in again. I check to make sure he is not falling off the bed. Fall back asleep.

6:28 AM Lightly awake I plan my day with my eyes closed, finally decide to get up. I hear the television on downstairs. I head to the kitchen to prepare his lunch. Meanwhile Kevin sets out his first day of school outfit for him by the stairs. He leaves to work giving me a kiss goodbye.





the way Daddy laid out your clothes



Turkey & ham sandwhich w/ provolone, gold fish, carrots, fruit snacks, yogurt and apple juice.. 


6:58 AM I'm upstairs taking pictures of him sleeping. He wakes up and smiles, "I'm thirsty mommy?" I give him a hug and tell him I love him. He follows me to the stairs and I offer him a piggy back ride down.  


7:24 AM We are eating breakfast, rice crispy cereal, milk and a bite of a pop tart. We brush our teeth, dress and I show him his lunch, he's excited.







yelling at me "no more pictures mommy! put camera down!"


tried closing the door and hiding in the corner to avoid camera contact
Being silly, while I tickled you and you fell to the floor in laughter


7:44 AM Sue pulls up, I see her from the kitchen window, she tells me there are thunderstorms coming. Lily is here. We play.

you were watching Thomas the train.. & you took your shoes and socks off


8:23 AM Turn the television off, put Caspian's socks and shoes back on. Put lily in her carseat, gel & brush Caspian's hair. Kevin is home from PT, he helps me while I fumble my camera attempting to take pictures of Caspian's first day leaving the house, it gets hectic. Don't want to be late, Kevin puts Caspian in the car, I buckle Lily in, he watches us drive away with a sad look on his face.


a little gift for you to let you know mommy loves you, I put it in your backpack












the silliest face you made all day


"Hulk Smash!" your two favorite words


reason why daddy won't ever be a photographer 




8:44 AM We make it to the school, we are early. I take a few more pictures. Other mom's have their cameras,  I don't feel so silly now. One of them takes our picture with my camera, her daughter is in the Dolphin class.


heard thunder and turned around with this expression then came running to me











 


 9:15 AM Preschool director Michelle opens the doors to Noah's Ark. We let everyone go in front of us. He holds my hand tight. Ms. Ellie & Ms. Sue welcome him in, he hangs his backpack and puts his lunch away. I take more pictures. Its time to go. I turn you around towards me, you look at me then down searching for Lily. I'm down on one knee and I tell you "I love you, have a good day at school. Mommy will be back in a little while. Be good." "I lah yooou mommy" I'm squeezing you tight and my eyes begin to water. Its time to go.



 


9:20 I watch you from outside your classroom, you are swinging your arms, happy. I read your lips, and your expressions, "HULK SMASH!" you say to Ms. Sue and she gifts you a warm hug. I know you'll be ok, you are ready. But I may not be... 

9:24 AM I make it to the car, clenching my teeth fighting back the tears. Putting Lily in the car, she looks at me and grins her gummy smile through her paci. I miss you being this small. 

9:38 AM I drive to Target to buy you a congratulatory gift. Squinkies, the first set, you'll love it. 

9:57 AM Get home. I miss you. Go head first into my work, answering emails etc. 

10:20 AM  Sit down to write part one of this post.. Counting down the minutes. 
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12:47 PM I left the house to pick him up, didn't want to be late. Forgot my camera and my shoes, ran out in sandals. 

1:05 PM Caspian playing puzzles with Ms. Sue. Another little boy's mom walks in with me and he looks up at her with a frown as she greets her child. Then you he sees me, smiles and run towards me, I pick him up and tell him I love him. He picks up his backpack and says its time to go home. Ms. Sue gives  you a warm hug and you are so excited to disect your day with me.  

The report: Ms. Sue said Caspian did very well, it was only when another little boy mentioned his momma that he said "I miss mommy. I missed him too. I'm so happy to know he was ready even though I was the one having a hard time today.

Caspian: I love you so much I am so proud of you. I know you enjoyed your gift (squinkies) and your first day of school. Always your mommy Jenne. 

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